Drumming My Fingers

Well, i'm still here, waiting for af to arrive around March 10-11. It's been pretty regular but i do have those times where it's 5 or 6 or two weeks late. And it's been kind of a stressful month (in a good way!), so i dont know if af will get thrown off.

In the meantime, I've been taking my prenatal vitamins (Wahoo! Never got to do that before). And, let's see what else ... decided to read through the packet of information they gave us two weeks ago at our first visit ;) ... well, they gave us this packet, and i thought, pshht, i dont need this, just gimme the injections already, let's get the ball rolling.

Hehehe, didnt realize that the packet contained a ton, A TON, of forms dh and i have to read and sign before our first day of treatment OR THEY WILL NOT ALLOW US TO GO FORWARD. yikes!

So, i got to do that asap. Me and dh. I dont know what the forms say yet, so i'll report back about them if i find anything interesting.

Oh, and we're signing up for a little acupuncture ... dont know why that never occurred to us before. But dh is especially psyched about it.

Also, i decided to clean up around here. Actually, what i want to do is get the house in order because i dont want to have to do too much house work when we start ivf. And, i dont want to live in a mess for that time. And, i'm not sure what will happen with ivf, so if it goes south, i might not be in any mood to clean up for a while. And being in the dumps and living in a dump is not a good combo.

So far, i've cleaned up the family room, kitchen, and living/dining room. Now, i just want to have my laundry organized, and i should be good. It's the laundry that sometimes overwhelms. It's not my favorite chore ... and there's TOO MUCH!

I also want to continue with yoga for the next month of birth control pills, then i'm going to freeze my membership for a while. But until then, i really want to take advantage of it ... i just get so lazy about it sometimes. I LOVE IT. But i go during lunch and between getting there and the class, it runs to an hour and half. And it ends up being such an interruptions in my work day. My lunch is only 45 minutes, so if anyone notices how long i'm gone, it might create a leeettle awkward situation for me :D. There is a 7am class, but i would have to catch the 5:50 am train to make it, which means i would have to be up at 4:30am at the latest ... which i'm trying!

Ok, well, that's the plan for the next month or so, cleaning up and getting physically ready. No news on the adoption front. Apparently, many other people have come forward with similar backgrounds to the baby. The agency is going to first search through all the agencies in the area to make sure that there isnt a qualified couple that's already licensed and waiting. I've been told the agency has 6 weeks to find permanent placement for the baby. But, i think my chances with ivf are much much higher.

Having said that, i dont even know what my chances are with ivf. Hehehe, i guess i forgot to ask. The chances really dont matter so much, so long as there is "a" chance, i'm in. But, the doctor said that the chances of an actual baby being born from a fertilized egg is 25%. Wait ... actually, i think she did say something about higher chances considering that more than one embryo is transferred, i just cant remember. Maybe i should read that brochure, but i have this problem of getting overwhelmed by information overload. Ignorance is bliss.

All i want is a chance, and i leave the rest to God.